Children of Addicted Parents and People

im 13 and my mum is an alcoholic ever since i was born she drinks spirits alot and i worry about her alot she misses work because of her drinking she plans her drinking out so she will be off work and i will be at school so she will go and get a bottle of somthing and get a drink so when i come home she will be passed out on the couch. i get so hurt by and it and recently i have been missing alot of school due to her drinking shes drunk just now and shes lying on the couch sleeping im actually ment to be at school but i get worried about her so i dont go. i dont normally tell anyone how i feel but i think my friends know whats going on at home i normally dont go out at weekends incase my mum gets drunk so i stay in just the other night my mum just went out and left me in the house all night on my own i got a phone call at about 2.30 in the morning and it was the police telling me they had found my mum drunk they knew i was on my own and i ended up going down to my uncles and waiting on her to be brought home she was that bad she couldnt even walk. she slurs down the phone at my auntie and my auntie doesnt know she is an alcoholic she really pisses me off because she blames me for her drinking and she says she does it becuse shed fed up and she tells lies about me to my auntie saying i sit and order her about but i dont. ive actually tried to kill myself becuase im so sick of it just now shes slurring down the phone at my auntie saying bad things about me. my auntie beleivs her ! shes been arrested for drink driving after my gran died and she got over it but last september my grandad died too so she has been drinking alot again. IM SICK OF HER sometimes i wish i would go to sleep and never wake up and i shouldnt have to think that im only 13 does is anyone in the same situation as me please send another comment telling me how to get my mum help and me too ! thank you xxx