Children of Addicted Parents and People

slouched on the sofa
drunk agian
hes looking for a answer
message in a bottle
open another bottle
whats another bottle going to do
hes drunk agian
looking for a answer
he slurrs nasty words
he lashes out
looks into the bottle
no message in the bottle
open another bottle
dad why not ?
why not just go drink ten more ?
i can tell you now
there will be no message in a bottle
a message from me yes
but a message in a bottle
no..
just keep drinking
one day you hopefully see
the bottle is empty
no message does it hold

here is one that emma in charge knows about
i know it not easy
but you have done a lot
so please don't go
you are true to me

over the years
you're my star
that makes me smile
or laugh when in pain

i know it not easy
but you have done a lot
so please don't go
you are true to me

it would feel different
without you by my side
to help me out
when i cry

i know it not easy
but you have done a lot
so please don't go
you are true to me

or to lend a hand
you were so lively
till that gloomy day
you have done so much

i know it not easy
but you have done a lot
so please don't go
you are true to me

you bloom like a rose
when you smile
the day grows stronger
than before i am losing you

i know it not easy
but you have done a lot
so please don't go
you are true to me

as the day shines
you all ways seam to care
do you remeber the good time
with the entier trill we had

i know it not easy
but you have done a lot
so please don't go
you are true to me

without you
it feels like i am on a dream
were the rhythem has stopped
that is slowly fading away

i know it not easy
but you have done a lot
so please don't go
you are true to me

then you catch me
as there is no where to go
as you keep going
on till that day

this song is about my adopted grandad as he built alot all though i a have lots most of this but also my dog as i feel that seeing her makes me smile to carry on or start the day with hope that she will be at home when i get back but i fear that it is her time to go as my dog is 16 in human years.
also i wantg to talk that my luck is bad as one newfuew is only 3 months old and he is in a coma and had 7 operations that is not fair. also my mum is trying to come back myself i want to as she is my mum but i fear that i will go into social and that i fear to go home as she wet her she and nearly died due to the amount her liver has consitied but she dosen't want to stop which means it is hard as i have no mother figure i am in my final year at school but i don't know what to do to chose my prom dress and normal the mum helps but i don't have any one to take that place for me.

Happy shopper

A smile a waits
A basket already filled
The service is great
A loyal customer she is

Soaps, newspapers, cloths
Things not needed brought
A free bag given of course

She feels relaxed and comfortable
Chit chat
This is quite normal

She leaves a happy shopper.

M- My life was a nightmare i wanted to rip out my hair
Y- Young and vulnerable who cared?

A- As drink slowly started to take over her my mum
L- Life sucked as i could do nothing cause i was under her thumb
C- Collecting horrid memories of that drink that controlled my mum
O- Oh why could nothing be done?
H- Hiding away from the world that ticked away
O- Over there that little girl who felt lost and far away there she lay
L- Living a lie but dreamt of a safe and sercue home
I- In a world of a life without drink and her mum to be normal
C- Course i never did belive but now there is hope and a little girl can dream a dream as life is better and her mum is normal, life is a sruggle but as long as mummy doesnt pick up that bottle.....

Life is out there

The ache wakes in me, refusing to be still.
It beacons to be heard, louder than any outside
blurb, plastered billboards, cracked up pavements,
streets that talk of nothing.

I dwell here, old childhood memories yelling in my head.
Near to the precipice of boredom
of a life gone wrong.
Trying to fit in, the Monday morning rat race, the application of my fake face,
telling the world all is fine, inside a war rages-in mind.

Show me the exit, take me to heaven and paradise before breakfast.
I seek to pop and creak, scatter the dust,
unwind the spine, break childhood chains of rust.
I choose another way. I give myself kind words and the tension
begins to fade.
Then again on another day and another day-I do the same...
The years pass.

Born again.
With a fresh yawn I examine the ache,
Check the mirror for the “fake” that used to be me.
But the ghosts have gone, finally moved on.

Eyes bright and clear,
I strike out.
I am free.
Life is out there.

When you feel it inside your brain,

When you destroy yourself,

When you drive us all insane.

When our hearts break,

It's because you wouldn't quit.

Not even for your kids sake.

Our hearts are bleeding for you,

We are always reaching out,

But there is nothing left to reach to.

You could be saved,

but you won't be.

Sometimes I think you just aren't that brave.

So go ahead,

Have a drink apologize later,

while we cry for things you've said.

Go ahead strangle me,

kill me, just like you said

Truth is you don't scare anybody.

Wash my hands no more bloody red,

Apologize in the morning,

but you can never have back the things you said.

They will be kept with me,

They will cut me, burn me and scar inside,

For the rest of eternity.

This is exactly my mom, and i dont know what to do, xx

A-Alcohol, what a terrible thing!

L-Life flows away, the more you drink.

C-Carefully, we tip-toe around you when you are in this state,

O-Only to avoid the drunken rages.

H-Happily you sit there, glass in hand.

O-Only I realise what is about to follow...

L-Lie to you, I do, to keep this broken family together!

I sat in the bed
On a cold dark night,
Listening..hearing,
Filled with such fright

I knew it was back
I heard all her cries
The monster in mummy
That she sometimes hides

I heard the breaking
The smashing plates
I heard her screaming
And knew it was too late

I couldn't stop her
The monster was here
I knew this would happen
Yet i still filled with fear

Where was my mummy?
Where did she go?
The monster consumed her
And she didn't even know

Morning came along
As I sat in my bed
Wishing and willing
That damn monster dead

I saw all the bottles
The smashed cups and glasses
My mum in bed
While the hangover passes

The monsters asleep now
My mummy's here for the day
But as night falls I cry
Because my mummys gone away

A 1 minute clip from ITV's Tonight Episode: Mummy Please Stop Drinking. Emma talks about how her mum's drinking effected her. Reporter Nicky Taylor then shows how others are effected also through the COAP website and other websites.